An Infertil Christmas

So I can't speak for everyone dealing with infertility, but for me Christmas is one of the hardest holidays. Now don't get me wrong it's not that I don't enjoy the holidays and spend the holiday season depressed and sad. But there are those moments that sink in that I'm not going to stand in a ridiculously long line just to get a picture of my child with a very badly dressed Santa, I don't get to Christmas shop for tons of toys to fill under the tree for my child, I don't get to hear the pitter patter of little feet running to our room to wake us up and let us know Santa has come, I don't get to see a little mini me or mini hubby running to the tree on Christmas morning. And to be honest these things do make me sad. This year we are given the privilege to share alot of our Christmas with our OH SO AWESOME little nephew, but he is our nephew and my heart aches for the way it would be with a child of our own. But I'm going to be thankful for the fact that we will be sharing some of these moments with our nephew! He is what gets me through most of my down days. His little smile and his love for me and my husband melts my heart!

But above all of this the most important thing this holiday season is to celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior!! Its not about Santa, the tree, the gifts, or even the pitter patter of little feet. Its about the awesome gift we all were givin by our God! The gift of His son sent here to live a life without sin and to take on all of our ugly sins so that we may have eternal life! The best gift we can EVER receive!! Without Him we were all doomed to a life of darkness that resulted in an eternal life of a torturous burning pit of fire! But instead all you have to do is truly repent of your sins and turn away from the ways of the world, ask our Savior into your heart, to guide you down the right paths in this life, and to really believe that He came, He died (for our sins), and He rose from the dead! Simple right? That's the wonderful things about being saved! Its not some hard process that you have to fill out an application and get accepted! The gift is YOURS as long as you will receive it. Now I don't mean simple as in you can so okay Ill do this and I'm saved so I can go on living like I have been. It is a serious thing! And if you are truly asking God into your heart you will feel a miraculous change in your life! You wont want to do the things you once did and when you slip (which we all do at times) you will feel a guilt on your heart!! Thats when its time to fall to those knees and ask for forgiveness. I don't like when I slip by doing, saying, or acting in a way that I shouldn't, but I love that feeling of guilt! It means that the Lord is telling me directly that Im slipping up, It is such a real presence of God in my life. It is a moment where I feel Him right there with me. Now please don't take that out of context. I don't mean that I want to, or like to run around and do something wrong just so I can feel that presence, I'm just stating what a wonderful miraculous feeling it is to feel the hand of God actively in my life guiding me in the right direction, correcting me when I'm wrong! Our Savior is amazing and just waiting on you to reach out to Him!!

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life John 3:16

"I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. - John 14:6

I hope that each and everyone of you have a safe and Happy Holiday!!!!

"And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS:
for he shall save his people from their sins."
Matthew 1:21


My verse of hope for the day-

Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. - Psalm 37:4