Before I start off this blog I want to apologize for all of the type-o's and horriable spelling in ALL of my blogs! LOL Its partly due to the fact that I am a little bit lazy when it comes to checking over my blog and also I have so much in this head of mine that when im typing so fast to make sure and get it out before I forget I simply just don't notice if I missed a letter here or there lol! So sorry!
Now I want to congratulate two friends of mine that have struggled with infertility and come out on top!!! Im not going to mention any names! But you both so deserve your precious little piece of heaven so much! I know both of you are going to make wonderful parents! And you also give us other "infertils" hope! God is so good!
Now im feelin a little bloggy over some tv shows! LOL So I watched the show Sister Wives the other night. I do not share in there beliefs but I also do not judge them ( or anyone for there religious beliefs). But on the show the first wife has struggled with infertility since the birth of her first daughter while the other 3 wives have popped out kids one after the other. ( reminds me of a certain woman from the bible i blogged about not so long ago) Well on the last episode the newest wife gives birth and directly after giving birth she calls in the first wife and tells her that after much prayer she is wanting to be a surrogate for her! I cried like a baby! This woman truly showed a love that is not cut out for most. On "her day" while she is still holding her new born son she is thinking of how it is affecting this woman that has become like a sister to her. Feeling empathy for her and crying with her! She is truly showing Gods love! She is also giving this woman a true gift! The ability to be a mother again! It just really touched my heart!
Now I watched another show called One Born Every Minute. On this show there was a couple that has struggled with infertility for 3 years. She has had 2 miscarriages and 1 still born and was now pregnant. I got to watch the fear on there faces in the delivery room. Not like most couples who are excited and happy they were truly scared of what may go wrong. I wonder if that could be us one day. At the end when they finally see there son breathing and crying she sobs! And so did I! I could only imagine the joy and relief she was feeling at that very moment. I wonder if that will be me oneday! Holding my little baby that I have ached for, cried for, PRAYED for! Will I be there sobbing with pure joy as I hold that child that I have wanted for so long? Or will I never get that moment? Not having the answer to that question is what plagues me each and everyday! I pride myself in the ability to stay positive and strong alot of the time. But there are times where I feel completely and totally exhausted of being strong! I just want to fall and cry! And at times I do! But my savior is always there to pick me up and wisper trust.. have faith... be strong my daughter! And so I will obey! But I will continue to long for that moment that I can let out that sob of joy that will let go of every doubt and fear I have held in for almost 2 years now!
Romans 5:3-4 “Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverence; perseverence, character; and character, hope.”
This verse is what reminds me to give glory to God even through my sufferings!
Romans 12:12 “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”
This reminds me to pray faithfully!
Isaiah 40:30-31 “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
This reminds me to hold hope in my Savior because he will always hold me up and be my rock!
2 Corinthians 12:8-10 “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me,”My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am week, then I am strong.”
This reminds me that being weak is not a bad thing! It only allows my wonderous God to be strong for me!
Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
And this reminds me that through all of our struggles with infertility or any burden in our life that we can give it to the Lord and He will give us rest!
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