Blessed this Christmas Season

Whew!!! Just plopped down on the couch after three full days of running the road! Stuffing our faces here and there and enjoying time with family. We had a very blessed Christmas this year!! Even though I had small twinges of sadness, wishing we had a baby to take around from house to house, I enjoyed it for the most part! With all of the running about I really didn't have much time to stop and dwell on the matter, which was a blessing in its self. There were talks of our infertility at every family event we went to this weekend. Some that I brought up, some that family members brought up. But Ive come to a point where I love to talk about it. Its apart of our life. And I also find it healthy to get it out. It also is an educational subject to those who don't know much about it, which in a way is raising an awareness of infertility. Its not some disorder that is cured by "just stop trying" or "just don't think about it" which is the most common statements people dealing with infertility hear. Infertility is something that is not often talked about and most people dealing with it hide it because they are scared or ashamed. I hope that in a way I can raise awareness of infertility to those who know nothing about it and to help those that are scared to speak out know that they are not alone and its okay to talk about. I'm doing my small part just by blogging our story, but I hope in the future we may be able to organize some type of events on raising awareness and maybe even doing something to help those dealing with infertility who do not have insurance. Its just a dream right now but hopefully oneday we will see it come true.

Now that Christmas is over it means that January is fast approaching!!! Which means that our doctors appointment whirlwind will also be coming soon!!! I feel a YIKES and a YAY all at the same time!! lol First we will start off with my acupuncture appointment that I will be scheduling the second week of January and the hubbys appointment in that same week. Once these two are out of the way we will see what God has in store for us!! I know His blessings are miraculous and His plan will prevail. Until then I will faithfully wait and continue to seek His guidance on the path He leads us on. Hopefully 2012 will result in a baby but I'm not getting my hopes up to much. I remember thinking 2011 was going to result in a baby and I think subconsciously I was trying to beat the clock which aided in me losing focus on Gods plan and me trying to force my plan, or any plan for that matter to take place. I know that the closer my relationship with the Lord grows the devil will only attack me more, placing struggle and trials in my life, BUT I have God on my side so he can BRING. IT. ON.! My Savior is the King of kings and Lord of lords! He is with me always! I stand strong in His loving plan for me is more than I can ever imagine and He will prevail in my life!

1 Chronicles 16:11
Seek the LORD and His strength; seek His face continually.

Psalm 25:9
He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way.

Psalm 25:12
Who is the man who fears the LORD? He will instruct him in the way he should choose.

Psalm 31:3
Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.

And still one of my most favorites!!

Psalm 37:4,7
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass ... Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him