So in the past weeks with the purchase of a new car, some unexpected financial struggles, and a negative pregnancy test I have been somewhat of an emotional wreck at times! Then I get a phone call! A phone call from the DOCTOR!! I was so nervous.... 1. because I missed the call and 2. I had to check the voicemail. I was standing in the middle of a car lot with the sun beating down only adding to all of a sudden sweat that had broken out! I excused myself to my car so I could listen to the voicemail in privacy and I thought well if I get bad news at least Im getting rid of this car so that it wouldnt be a constant reminder. After finally finding the courage to JUST LISTEN TO IT ALREADY!! It was not news I expected. They told me that there had been a delay in the results. That it would take another week or two before they would be calling me with the results. I dont know how I feel about this.... On one hand I think maybe they just had some set backs in the office and are backed up?? Right? on the other hand I think maybe something is wrong... something that made them have to do further testing.... that she couldnt tell me over voicemail. Yet I cant bring myself to call and ask. I know its crazy! I feel like its just one to two more weeks I can wait... Im good at waiting!! But I could just call and get it over with. I guess I feel confused and stressed not only from this but other things going on. So I turn to God. To give me strength to be patient... wisdom to understand (even if its something I dont want to hear)... and peace with whatever path is set before us. The best I can do is stay focused on Jeremiah 29:11. God has a plan for us! It is already set out for us we are just blindly trusting him along this journey. This does not mean however that I dont have my moments of doubt and question God if He really does have a special plan for me.... and I question how long Ill have to wait to see this plan prevail... I know that this is Satan getting in my head, pushing doubts in my mind! These are the times that I rely on my Hevenly Father the most! Soooo..... as soon as I get official results I will let all of you know!!
The next portion I got from a website by this link
http://christianpf.com/trusting-god/
I should be just as confident that things are going to work out when they look crazy as when everything looks fine and dandy. The opposite is true as well. Even though things look peaceful and calm, that is not an indication of security. Our security comes from God. It is not at all dependent on what is going on around us. Whether it is the economy, our finances, our children, our marriages, we can (and should) trust God with all of it.
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
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