Nerves!

So tomorrow is the big day! Its funny i remember saying that the night before i got married. Lol and hopefully oneday i will be saying that same phrase again except it will be a delivery or adoption day!! But our journey officially starts tomorrow! I guess you could say we have been on this journey awhile now but it starts tomorrow with "the doctor". Im nervous, i cant sleep, im excited, and im anxious! I know that the hubby is more nervous than i am being that its all about him tomorrow, but he doesnt show it. He just acts like its another day in the neighborhood and no big deal. But i know he is doing that for me. I dont even know if we get the results the same day or we come home and have to wait. The good news is God has me well prepared for the waiting game, ive had lots of practice. So in that i am thankful. This whole ordeal has taught me a tremendous amount of patience. Which is wonderful since it is a fruit of the spirit  i should practice daily in my christian walk. Lets see it- Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and self control.

So I have found through my infertility:

A LOVE for my Lord that is so great that it amazes me daily. An unbreakable LOVE for my husband who is so strong and supportive.

Joy through the stories of others that have won the battle. And hopefully a joy that i will have oneday.

Peace is a big one! God has givin me a tremendous amount of peace that i did not have in the begining of all of this. I am at peace with whatever his plan for me may be.

Patience of course because in a nutshell infertility is a waiting game.

Kindness is one that i sometimes did not realize i was not practicing before. Not only have there been so many kind and encouraging words extended to me through all of this but i have had the pleasure of speaking to others going through this same thing and been able to share kindness and understanding with them. Now that my relationship with the Lord has grown so much i find it very very very hard to be unkind to anyone and if i do say something that was not ment to be unkind but may have been taken that way i immediatly feel it on my heart to make sure that that person knows whatever the situation was or what was said was not made with ill intent.

Goodness- I try to practice goodness daily. I always want to help someone or show goodness to someone daily.

Faithfulness is probably the one i have learned most through my infertility. I have learned that God has always been faithful. He is unchanging. I was the one that was not being faithful. I am so thankful for my Lord and Savior. He is the most important person in my life over all else. I faithfully love him. I faithfully trust in him. And i will faithfully wait for his plan.

Gentleness is another big one. I have learned to be gentle with my husbands feelings. I have also learned to be gentle with the feelings of others going through trials in there journey to parenthood. You always thought you were saying the right things that infact hurt until you walk in there shoes.

Self-control.. Well we all know i try to control everything!!! But i have had to practice controlling my SELF from trying to control everything else lol. I have learned that God is in control and i need to stop myself when i step in and try to make MY plans happen the way I want them to. Self-control also comes into play in every christians life when you are tempted to go to that party and drink... or go to that bar and such. This is when your self-control comes into play and you make a stand for the Lord (who died for you might i add) and you say i am gonna control the worldly part of me that wants to go with the crowd and im gonna stand up for what is right and and stand up for my Savior who stood up for me.


Wow this update on going into the doctor tomorrow turned into a whole other kind of blog. Lol. Im just a vessle and if the Lord puts it on my heart i put it on this blog. :)

Please everyone take a moment and say a little prayer for us for tomorrow. The power of prayer is amazing! Thanks for checking in on our journey!

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

—Galatians 5:22-23