I have let myself go a little overboard! Youtubing pregnancy announcement videos ( which added to my bouts of crying) and filling up folders on my computer with baby room ideas! This is not the first time I have done these type things! Which scares me! I set myself up for sadness if the test comes out negative. But its like I cant help myself! Lol! The hubbys hopes are so high that I worry that it will crush him if the test comes out negative. He has not been this excited through our entire journey. I try to say things like "well lets not get our hopes up" or" it may not come out positive." And he just gives me this look like "are you crazy" and says "of course its gonna be positive". He tells me dont say that we might not be pregnant. And things like "just think your already pregnant!" Im all for "think positive" attitude but I worry! The option of not being pregnant is just not an option for him! I told him the other day if this does not work we are going to be doing the same appointment next month. His reply: "No next month we are going to be going in for your pregnancy appointment" :/ Please pray for both of us to get the results that we WANT but if its not meant to be pray that we have the understanding of Gods love and wisdom to know that it just was not our time.
Monday, February 13, 2012
My poor husband!!!
So it has been four days since my HCG shot and my hormones are running wild! Mixed with nerves of "Is this gonna work"! I have been an emotional wreck! The side effects of the shot have caused nausea and ovulation pains along with a sore tush from the site of injection!!We are playing the waiting game again! Two weeks until we can take THE TEST!! ( well technically 10 days ) The doctor put us on a "schedule", and it seems that all the "times" she gave us are the same times the hubby was called out to work. Of all times for him to get called out soooo much! Which added to my emotional break downs! On top of all this I have come down with a terrible sore throat! Yay! Just in time that I cant take ANY medication! But at this point I am determined and will endure all of the emotions and sickness with a smile on my face!! Even through the tears lol! I feel like we are soooo close! That parenthood is on my finger tips! But if we do not achieve parenthood this time Im going to stand strong in the belief that it was just not Gods plan for us. This does not mean I wont break down and fall apart! But it does mean that I will get back up again and never give up!
I have let myself go a little overboard! Youtubing pregnancy announcement videos ( which added to my bouts of crying) and filling up folders on my computer with baby room ideas! This is not the first time I have done these type things! Which scares me! I set myself up for sadness if the test comes out negative. But its like I cant help myself! Lol! The hubbys hopes are so high that I worry that it will crush him if the test comes out negative. He has not been this excited through our entire journey. I try to say things like "well lets not get our hopes up" or" it may not come out positive." And he just gives me this look like "are you crazy" and says "of course its gonna be positive". He tells me dont say that we might not be pregnant. And things like "just think your already pregnant!" Im all for "think positive" attitude but I worry! The option of not being pregnant is just not an option for him! I told him the other day if this does not work we are going to be doing the same appointment next month. His reply: "No next month we are going to be going in for your pregnancy appointment" :/ Please pray for both of us to get the results that we WANT but if its not meant to be pray that we have the understanding of Gods love and wisdom to know that it just was not our time.
I have let myself go a little overboard! Youtubing pregnancy announcement videos ( which added to my bouts of crying) and filling up folders on my computer with baby room ideas! This is not the first time I have done these type things! Which scares me! I set myself up for sadness if the test comes out negative. But its like I cant help myself! Lol! The hubbys hopes are so high that I worry that it will crush him if the test comes out negative. He has not been this excited through our entire journey. I try to say things like "well lets not get our hopes up" or" it may not come out positive." And he just gives me this look like "are you crazy" and says "of course its gonna be positive". He tells me dont say that we might not be pregnant. And things like "just think your already pregnant!" Im all for "think positive" attitude but I worry! The option of not being pregnant is just not an option for him! I told him the other day if this does not work we are going to be doing the same appointment next month. His reply: "No next month we are going to be going in for your pregnancy appointment" :/ Please pray for both of us to get the results that we WANT but if its not meant to be pray that we have the understanding of Gods love and wisdom to know that it just was not our time.
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